Sounds like a rationalization “programmed for addiction” but it’s a truth and realization.
In the schools by the television, by commercials, and by media they taught me who and what to be from my first innocent learning experience of a child they polluted my purity with lies. As they polluted my ancestors before me.
They taught me that fear was shameful by words like chicken shit and pansey.
So I hid my fear away and it grew inside me till it made me sick.
They told me that crying was a bad thing
So I stifled my tears till they turned to poison unfallen, unspent
They told me that anger was bad
So I repressed and hid my anger in shame till it grew to rage inside me
They taught me that my dreams were stupid and that to excel I must compete
So instead of seeing the gifts in myself and my brothers and sisters we diminished each other’s dreams and gifts so we could see ourselves as good
We fought one another instead of encouraging. We lied and hid from one another. So we compared our insides to their outsides and knew something was wrong with us. We resorted to criticism and blame…
But that didn’t work because now I saw myself as bad. Basing my self image on comparison was in my head and not my heart. It didn’t stop the pain of knowing I was inferior to all other people, as they had taught me.
I was beautiful but thought I was ugly. My parents being raised by shame and guilt persuaded me everything about me was wrong and bad I felt so much shame. My dreams were crushed.
I hid who I was deep in my core afraid of being different from the whole world.
They taught me who I should be not how to be who I am.
They taught me that war and slaughter of mankind is necessary to be safe.
And even though my stomach is as a herbivore, deer, rabbit, or monkey and I have no fangs or claws;
They told me to kill and eat blood meat and drink from cattle’s breasts so my health and brain function would be diminished as heart disease threatened to set in.
The corporations in high places poison our food and rape the Earth while claiming to desire complete harmony with nature.
They told me that my religion and heritage is built on blood sacrifice they told me the men of old could murder a man and then slaughter animals to atone for it…as I blindly believed such Satanic ritualistic based atrocities as my religion.
They created a god of fear and punishment who slaughters for blood sacrifice.
They taught me to trust man made medicine and that the God given Earth medicinal herbs, fruits, nuts, and sunshine won’t heal my body.
Now I see these Corporate and banker bastards scramble to destroy the Earth and it’s abundance. They try to make nature illegal and suppress ALL it’s wisdom. To them Earth and abundance is their rival.
So by diet I became stopped up for years as I wondered why my bodily functions didn’t work properly. I became fat and bloated, swollen, and diseased as they profited off the Cancer that they themselves invented. They gave me more poison radiation to “fix” the other poison I had fallen prey to.
Because we are taught in all their wisdom only they know the cures to disease.
I know this poem has surpassed the addiction topic…no wonder we drink and drug…the cure for addiction is to become open and transparent and to reprogram ourselves to know we are good and made in the image of goodness.
We are more powerful than we know and they the ravenous wolves are afraid of us waking up to the slavery at hand.
Here are the solutions to addiction and an addict mind:
This doesn’t mean that we don’t need to do a fourth step on our own wrongs. But this realization does mean that we have been victimized and lied to and that their are valid reasons we were lead astray as sheep for the slaughter. So we must not condemn us or our brothers anymore.
We must band together in goodness by changing ourselves WE WILL CHANGE THE WORLD. With the faith of a mustard seed we shall move mountains.
The photo is a God Box to write our deepest fears and put them in God’s hands.